Aiyo, feeling so good today! Let me share you three true stories from me. Well, I am not talking about the secret. If it is, I won’t share you. HA HA! But it is not. It is just things that hardly anyone knows.
Enjoy reading it, adults! It is not a folktale…. ha ha!
I do not know why my tear dropped at their wedding but one thing I know is-it was when I felt extremely delighted instead of them. The couple is my friend. They were not in love that much at first, yet they knew how much they love each other when the guy was to marry to be able to go to Australia. They said to each other they would break up though the marriage was a fake one.
Things happened unexpectedly when the gal cried hardly on the wedding day even if she knew it is not a real marriage. She hugged me and said she could not hold back her tear. Next day, the boy took the gal to his parents and told them, he wanted a real marriage with this gal. The parents said nothing just smile and let the lunch passed. On the day the guy had to set off to Australia, the gal cried hardly again. The bad news was when the mother reached the gal and said, forget my son. He will not be back because he will be in good education and businesses there-Out of side out of mind, she said. Aiyo, imagine how hard the gal cried. 
Few days later, the guy called the gal but the gal did not pick. She meant to stop loving him. Ha ha and then the guy called me asking what was going on, yet I told him nothing. I said I knew nothing. (I did not want to interfere though. Not that I didn’t care about my friend. But love should involve two ppl only. But I know I was wrong!)
I did not know how hard these two try to survive of how far had they been forgetting each other. But my friend remained in depression for so many months. It would pass soon, I thought.She cried hardly on the International New Year day when I was in Siem Reap enjoying myself with many friends.
I e-mailed the guy shortly after I back in PP. And I do not know how they process but they got married few days ago. I did cry that day!!! I LOVE YOU two so much…and I got a lot of questions to ask when you are back from your honeymoon. Cheers…!
“When a man truly loves a woman, his life start changing and it keep getting better.” This is what I always remember in my mind since it comes from the man who loves me the most (I mean romance love). From an aggressive gang, to a hard-working student, to a thoughtful man and now he is a successful business man. “Sethea Yana loves Pagna always.” These words have appeared on my birthday card for eight years already. Looking back to how a 20 years old gang loves a 13 years old girl who was so poor, aggressive and mean: It should be just a LUST but it is not. He has been trying for eight years to this success just because he wants himself to have a good stance to ask me for marriage. I did not know many things about how he made his family love me so much, yet I know it on my 20th birthday 2007 when there was a long letter enclosed in my birthday gift. I am kind to share it briefly today.
Happy Birthday Princess! It has been so many years that I stay away from you. I haven’t seen your face nearly half a year now since my last visit. Yet, my love to you has never been changed by this distance. I am upgrading myself everyday only because I want to wait for today when you reach a good age to give me an answer that I can trust and take serious about it………… Since the first day you came to my life, every little thing in me starts changing. I used to think of giving up loving you because I saw how different we were in terms of age and wealth and I was just a gang though with wealth from my parents. But I was living in sadness, depression and find it hard to survive when I tried forgetting you and being your friends. For many months, I lived in pain I told myself I would forget you soon and can happily be just your friend. But the more I were without accepting I love you the more I felt I was nothing yet a creature in the middle of no where, no ambition, no goal. I looked at myself in the mirror and went out of my room to tell my parents who were enjoying the film in the living room. “Mom, dad! I want a girl now. I am not asking you to help me with this marriage but I am going to help myself. I cannot depend on your wealth to give happiness to the one in my life. I’ll change myself and it is because of her though she doesn’t love me now. She is my goal and whether or not I will be lucky enough to marry this girl, it is not what I am thinking now. What I know is, I need her in this life. You will not know the result if you do not try. I am not able to propose any marriage but I will propose it one day. I will go to Canada as you used to want me to. And there, I will start from nothing to many things, for a gal who makes me feel happy whenever I am with her. No matter how sad I am, how big the problem is, I can think of solution when I am with her. And that is how I know she is salient………….. (More words but lazy to type nas! ha ha) His mum cried after listening to all his words and hugged him. At last, someone appear to make her son’s life better. His father sat still looking at him and asked who is the gal. (It is me 
) “I will wait and see how long you can pretend to be that good.” his father said. “But father, I do not want to marry her now; I just want to create a chance for myself. I can’t give up while I haven’t tried.” ………………………. This is how his family loves me so much. On his farewell party day, one unforgettable event in my life happened. Do you want to know? ha ha Let me think if I will have good feeling to tell you more….! After he went abroad, I sometimes went to his house to play around, talk with his parents and messy his house with his younger sister. It was fun though. I always wondered how nice the family treats me. Of course, how would you feel when your son tells you he is committed to change because he wants a wife and let you wait and see? The better he can be, the more his family loves me, unbelievable!
There are many more things how he touched my heart on the night of my birthday. I read it with tears in eyes. At 12am, my phone rang and not different from other year, he asked me for the last time: “Marry me, I have everything now! At last I can stand here with all my strength and effort to have a chance to ask you to marry me. I know you love freedom! We can just got engage and let throw the wedding reception once you want. I love you!” I cried and cried while I was thinking what should be the answer. “Sorry Bong Na, I love you but it has always been a love for brother.” (Do you think I was right?)
I am not regret of rejecting his proposal not because I want a better man than him–he has everything, appearance, wealth and knowledge– but because this man love me so much and I can’t just think about my happiness and accept him while my love toward him has never been more than a brother. He worth a true love not a selfish love. I love him. He is always there to protect and care me…! I feel warm with his care. Until today, only three men make me feel warm, trust and hopeful whenever I am with them. Now, I am here to wish you all the best with your marriage which will be coming soon on valentine, Bong Na chea ty sro lanh!
Hey, let me tell you how cruel I am. He just called me to tell about the marriage and I asked: Bong Na, love me so much why not stay alone forever, marry tveu ey? He laughed and said: Bong Na loves Pagna always! ha ha! No one will be able to understand this answer, maybe. I burst out laughing too! I LOVE YOU Sethea Yana! ha ha…!
There was one time in my life that I thought I have found him. But then I am wrong. That love is kept somewhere in this universe now and I do not know when I will be able to take that love back…! I lost that love, be mature enough to accept the truth though.
I still cannot tell who is the man I love the most now! Time will pass and I will get the answer for myself.
如果两个人的天堂 , 象是温馨的墙 , 囚禁你的梦想 , 幸福是否象是一扇铁窗 , 候鸟失去了南方 , 如果你对天空向往 , 渴望一双翅膀 , 放手让你飞翔 , 你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰 , 听从凋谢的时光 , 浪漫如果变成了牵绊 , 我愿为你选择回到孤单 , 缠绵如果变成了锁链 , 抛开诺言.
有一种爱叫做放手 , 为爱放弃天长地久 , 我们相守若让你付出所有 , 让真爱带我走 , 为爱结束天长地久 , 我的离去若让你拥有所有 , 让真爱带我走 说分手.
为了你 失去你 狠心扮演伤害你 为了你 离开你 永远不分的离
去.
Song by: 阿木
 | Bunlin on Nothing to Wirte |
 | Voudh on Preah Vihear |
 | Vercelti on Nothing to Wirte |
 | Bill on The wedding that make me shed… |
| Bill on The wedding that make me shed… |
