“When a man truly loves a woman, his life start changing and it keep getting better.” This is what I always remember in my mind since it comes from the man who loves me the most (I mean romance love). From an aggressive gang, to a hard-working student, to a thoughtful man and now he is a successful business man. “Sethea Yana loves Pagna always.” These words have appeared on my birthday card for eight years already. Looking back to how a 20 years old gang loves a 13 years old girl who was so poor, aggressive and mean: It should be just a LUST but it is not. He has been trying for eight years to this success just because he wants himself to have a good stance to ask me for marriage. I did not know many things about how he made his family love me so much, yet I know it on my 20th birthday 2007 when there was a long letter enclosed in my birthday gift. I am kind to share it briefly today.
Happy Birthday Princess! It has been so many years that I stay away from you. I haven’t seen your face nearly half a year now since my last visit. Yet, my love to you has never been changed by this distance. I am upgrading myself everyday only because I want to wait for today when you reach a good age to give me an answer that I can trust and take serious about it………… Since the first day you came to my life, every little thing in me starts changing. I used to think of giving up loving you because I saw how different we were in terms of age and wealth and I was just a gang though with wealth from my parents. But I was living in sadness, depression and find it hard to survive when I tried forgetting you and being your friends. For many months, I lived in pain I told myself I would forget you soon and can happily be just your friend. But the more I were without accepting I love you the more I felt I was nothing yet a creature in the middle of no where, no ambition, no goal. I looked at myself in the mirror and went out of my room to tell my parents who were enjoying the film in the living room. “Mom, dad! I want a girl now. I am not asking you to help me with this marriage but I am going to help myself. I cannot depend on your wealth to give happiness to the one in my life. I’ll change myself and it is because of her though she doesn’t love me now. She is my goal and whether or not I will be lucky enough to marry this girl, it is not what I am thinking now. What I know is, I need her in this life. You will not know the result if you do not try. I am not able to propose any marriage but I will propose it one day. I will go to Canada as you used to want me to. And there, I will start from nothing to many things, for a gal who makes me feel happy whenever I am with her. No matter how sad I am, how big the problem is, I can think of solution when I am with her. And that is how I know she is salient………….. (More words but lazy to type nas! ha ha) His mum cried after listening to all his words and hugged him. At last, someone appear to make her son’s life better. His father sat still looking at him and asked who is the gal. (It is me 
) “I will wait and see how long you can pretend to be that good.” his father said. “But father, I do not want to marry her now; I just want to create a chance for myself. I can’t give up while I haven’t tried.” ………………………. This is how his family loves me so much. On his farewell party day, one unforgettable event in my life happened. Do you want to know? ha ha Let me think if I will have good feeling to tell you more….! After he went abroad, I sometimes went to his house to play around, talk with his parents and messy his house with his younger sister. It was fun though. I always wondered how nice the family treats me. Of course, how would you feel when your son tells you he is committed to change because he wants a wife and let you wait and see? The better he can be, the more his family loves me, unbelievable!
There are many more things how he touched my heart on the night of my birthday. I read it with tears in eyes. At 12am, my phone rang and not different from other year, he asked me for the last time: “Marry me, I have everything now! At last I can stand here with all my strength and effort to have a chance to ask you to marry me. I know you love freedom! We can just got engage and let throw the wedding reception once you want. I love you!” I cried and cried while I was thinking what should be the answer. “Sorry Bong Na, I love you but it has always been a love for brother.” (Do you think I was right?)
I am not regret of rejecting his proposal not because I want a better man than him–he has everything, appearance, wealth and knowledge– but because this man love me so much and I can’t just think about my happiness and accept him while my love toward him has never been more than a brother. He worth a true love not a selfish love. I love him. He is always there to protect and care me…! I feel warm with his care. Until today, only three men make me feel warm, trust and hopeful whenever I am with them. Now, I am here to wish you all the best with your marriage which will be coming soon on valentine, Bong Na chea ty sro lanh!
Hey, let me tell you how cruel I am. He just called me to tell about the marriage and I asked: Bong Na, love me so much why not stay alone forever, marry tveu ey? He laughed and said: Bong Na loves Pagna always! ha ha! No one will be able to understand this answer, maybe. I burst out laughing too! I LOVE YOU Sethea Yana! ha ha…!
